JULY 2009

Summer Brings Memories

 

As long as I can remember both my children love the summer time and when the days grow hot I remember my son how he loved the hot summer nights. He never complained even when he was diagnosed with cancer.

Tonight it is a beautiful night and I am up late thinking of the many precious moments I spent with him. Yet, tonight I miss him more and wish for that precious kiss on my forehead. I happened to open the Word and there in Isaiah 43 my heart is taken to a time when I claimed many promises God has for me and my family. I think of my brother too after talking with my niece as she gets ready to deliver her first baby…Yes, then when I really get sad I think of mama which is daily also and I miss the voice that says: I am going to pray for you all and know how much I love you!

Well, all three are in God’s presence and I miss them terribly. It’s the night time that gets my heart a wandering…If this…what if…should I have…and many other thoughts…

But as I read: Isaiah 43:4 “Since you are precious sand honored in my sight, and because I love you, I will give men in exchange for you, and people in exchange for your life. Do not be afraid, for I am with you; I will bring your children from the east and gather you from the west.”

Oh me, God saw them precious and honored in His sight because He loved them. So why am I hurting so much in the deepest part of my heart? I re-read Isaiah 43:1b-2 “Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze.”

I thought they were mine; it appeared they were while they were here but they were always my Lord’s and I just presumed He gave them to me. God always takes me to this passage…all the time! He is telling me we are all His and we have been redeemed…Some of us already and some of us waiting for our final redemption. I will not be afraid for even though my sweet son, mama, and brother are with Jesus: I can rest assured that I too will be with them someday…So it’s not over! What seems so hurtful is just a breath and then when my eyes close for there final rest, they will open up and guess who will be there?

"JESUS AND MY SON AND MY MAMA AND MY BROTHER AND ALL WHO I HAVE LOVED"

Yes, summer brings many precious memories but summer will soon be over then autumn, then winter and the cycle of life goes on.

God’s Word is true and now matter what heartache, trial, joys or anything everyday life brings,

I KNOW MY REDEEMER LIVES AND HE WILL SUMMON ME SOMEDAY!

For my broken heart...mammy